S.H.O.O.T.I.N.G.Z.S.T.A.R.Z

Quotes

2010-11-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

Quotes

There's only one person who can make u smile when u cry. And that person is actually the one who makes u cry.

If you focus on what you left behind, you'll never be able to move ahead!
(Easy to say, but in real life it is just so hard to move on)

Our biggest regrets are not for the things we did -- but, for the things we did NOT do.
(There is just so many things I wanted to do with you, but there is just no more chance to do.)

Thank You miXque

2010-11-07T21:43:00.004+08:00

Thank You miXque

Enjoyed myself at our very favorite yuki yaki=)
After that is random photo shots, at our very own place.

A Little Love

2010-11-06T20:19:00.006+08:00

A Little Love

Greatness as you
Smallest as me
You show me what is deep as sea

A little love, little kiss
A litlle hug, little gift
All of little something. these are our memories

You make me cry, make me smile,
Make me feel that love is true...
You always stand by my side,
I don't want to say goodbye.

You make me cry, make me smile,
Make me feel the joy of love.
Oh! Kissing you...
Thank you for all the love you always give to me,
Oh! I love you...

Yes I do, I always do...

Make me cry,
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye.

You make me cry,
Make me smile,
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh! Kissing you...

Thank you for all the love you always give to me,
Oh! I love you...

To be with you... Oh! I love you...

Shift

2009-11-07T23:25:00.002+08:00

This blog is shifting in the process.

New blog will be: Wordpress

May come back if dislike wordpress :)

04 October 09

2009-11-04T23:46:00.005+08:00

Wednesday October 04

Currently lazy to update. Really dunno what to update, everything is just so... ...-_-

Went for OTC interview with ESC. Not putting much hope, if I'm in, will just go for it, not in, will not be bother by it too much.

There's meeting tomorrow. Hate meeting on thursday, and also hate thursday cause its stupidly a long day, and there's stupid orgcom.

Sleepy. Tired. Should go to sleep soon. Though there's quiz tml.

31 October 09

2009-10-31T22:27:00.002+08:00

Totally have no more respect of my father.

Why can't he just go find a job, and stop bothering me?

I'm only 18, why do I have to worry about this kind of thing.

Tears been dropping more, really lost.

Birthday

2009-10-30T23:24:00.003+08:00

I'm proud to announce that I'm 18th!
(Thought its like how many days liao.)

Thanks everyone for the wishes!

Just some to mention:
Thank you LIFE for the present!
Thank you Haz & Paige for the cake and surprise at Ehub!
Thank you ESC main-com for the surprise at my door!
Thank you p802, sorry to have you guys to wait for 2 days for the cake.

Not forgetting all other wishes, there's just so many to mention.

Appreciate it very much.

29 oct 09

2009-10-29T22:07:00.003+08:00

Tired really tired.

How long more can I hold, having the feeling of breaking down anytime.

Sometimes just feel like giving up, but everytime something convinces to hang on.

不知道为什么低落的时候会想着他。

MC

2009-10-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

MC for 2 days sucks, esp when its your 18th birthday.

23-24 Oct 09 (Ashrae Camp)

2009-10-24T22:38:00.003+08:00

Saturday October 24

Back from ashrae camp, super tired.
First time in other diploma club camp.
First time as logistics.
First time seeing the backscene of night walk.

Logistics is so fun if you are with a group of fun people, doubt I will still have the chance to be in logistics again. Hmm, shall keep it a good memory.

2 more days! And I'm legally 18, OMG can't wait for it!

Hate the feeling of awkwardness

22 October 09

2009-10-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

Long haiz.

Lessons 9am-6pm
LIFE meeting 6pm-7pm
ESC meeting at 7pm

Confused

2009-10-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

Confused. Unsure.
Why am I having this kind of feelings?

Oct Orientation

2009-10-15T15:07:00.006+08:00

Currently having Oct orientation. Publicity=Boring.

Left home on wed for refresher. On bus receive mother message. Totally sian-ness, and depression, tears started dropping on the bus, feel damn pai seh but just can't control myself.

Why do I have this kind of sister who is so despo for guys, can't she just be smarter.

Only slept at home so far 1 night for this week. And mother say that I don't even know whats happening at home, but is not that I don't know but is choose to pretend that I don't know.

Seriously, why do I have to worry about my sister when she is even older than me, why do I have to worry family finance problem?

1-3 Oct

2009-10-06T13:29:00.008+08:00

Jesslyn is lazy to talk about the 1st to 3rd or Dip Camp/MTC. So yup, nothing bout the camp.

Things I have to say is that after 4/5 nights of camps, ESC is definitly more bonded. Feeling the love and family of ESC, Now, I definitely does not regret running for election. The crazyness, the happiness, the laughter, the down time, the busyness together.

Climbing into swimming pool to bath, ZY Grace YQ being push into the pool, celebrating mooncake festival, supper together, shopping together blah blah blah

Jel - The smart and crazy president
Irvin - The one always fill with information, and crazyness.
Elaine - The surprising one(From the night walk), the clubbing girl
Jia Ying - The busy girl
Sher Hua - The funny one and who will spend for ESC with her Sher Hua's Fund
Jazzlyn - The cute one
Zhi Yong - The niang one
Yong Qiang - The joker and gong one
Grace - The crazy one
Sheikh - The one who is ok with everything
Yessy - The blur one
Larlene - The steady one
Cindy - The funny ah neh
Haszlin - The MIA one

And this is what make up ESC.

6 more months, with april orietation being the last event, ESC shall spend the time together to the fullness!

Monday October 05
Woke up 5am plus in the morning and meet Larlene, Sher Hua, Elaine, ZY, Grace, Jazzlyn to send YQ aka DaiSai aka xiao qiang aka qiang off. Touching moments?????? And YQ almost cried? Haha...

Afternoon K lunch with everyine except for ZY. And meeting at 4.30pm, hmm, a meeting fill with inside jokes and laughters!

29 September 09

2009-10-04T23:36:00.004+08:00

Tuesday September 29

Sub-com Workshop
Sub-com workshop was a success! In my eyes, nothing went wrong, was very relief!
First time as a organiser was inexperienced, really difficult, went through many, but learned many too!
And big thanks to the main comm, and not forgetting the helpers, without all the workshop wun be a success!
Hope everyone had fun!

ESC BBQ at night!
ESC Main-Com 09/10 first ever BBQ! Hope many will come in the future.
Really had fun...First time of HTHT talk, was feeling scary>.<

Counting down to 22 Days.

2009-10-02T11:28:00.002+08:00

以为能够坦诚的面对他，却发现我还是放不下。

Family Outing

2009-09-27T23:23:00.002+08:00

Family outing is so funny! Lol.

Esp wif Kim Hyun Joong. Ep 64.

Can't wait for Ep 65!

Family outing(Ep36,37) with Yoona(SNSD) is also nice too!

Jel's Birthday Celebration

2009-09-24T22:56:00.004+08:00

Jel's Birthday Celebration

Pictures are taken on 22 tues after meeting.

Picture taken at tamp safra bowling centre!

Picture taken on 23 outside powerhouse.

24 september 09

2009-09-24T00:11:00.002+08:00

FUCKING PISSED!

22 September 2009

2009-09-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

Tuesday September 22

I'm starting to feel all the stressness and panickness, the sub-com workshop is just next week, but so much thing is not done yet.

Sat 26 Sept - Work(10am-10.30pm)
Sun 27 Sept - Work(12pm-8pm)
Mon 28 Sept - Preparation for sub-com workshop
Tues 29 Sept - Sub-com workshop + Main com BBQ
Wed 30 Sept - Refresher for dip camp/mtc
Thurs - Sat 1-3 Oct - Camp
Sun 4 Oct - Work(10am-10pm)

诚实地想你 - 郭采洁

2009-09-20T22:09:00.002+08:00

诚实地想你 - 郭采洁

世界忽然变形忽然很安静
无助的我一秒间失去重心
听你不停为我担心
看你不停离我而去
你要我照顾自己

是我做了什么让天使生气
还是忘了做什么让幸福远离
也许该要真的相信
有种爱叫远远关心
痛却又哽住呼吸

我用狂奔用无力用恶梦去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没半点权利决定

我用痛哭用回忆用深爱去想你
去体会什么是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气
诚实地想你

是我做了什么让天使生气
还是忘了做什么让幸福远离
也许应该要真的相信
是有种爱叫远远关心
痛却又哽住呼吸

是不是担心我怕黑不敢前进
那颗本来没坠落的流星
才拼命烧亮了自己

诚实地想

Change

2009-09-16T22:10:00.004+08:00

People changes

From the first time I stepped into TP till now, feel that I changed.

To

Counting down

2009-09-16T21:06:00.001+08:00

Counting Down

40 Days to my 18th Birthday.
OMG, can't wait for it!

2009-09-15T22:45:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone!

Will be having a stall at downtown east D'marque Flea Market this Saturday 19 Sept.

Do support if you are free. Time: 10am-8pm

Kim Hyun Joong

2009-09-13T01:19:00.004+08:00

Woohoo!

Congrats to Kim Hyun Joong for getting the Best Actor at the Seoul International Drama Awards!

But Kim Hyun Joong is currently in Japan down with H1N1 :(
Hope he will get well soon!

Haptic Mission showing BOF actors and actress

Sick

2009-09-12T21:53:00.001+08:00

Sick.

Down with flu and cough. Sucker!

2009-09-10T00:25:00.001+08:00

穿西装的男生是最帅的。

Personality Type

2009-09-03T00:06:00.001+08:00

Personality Type

ISFP (Introversion, Sensing, Feeling, Perception)
You are quiet, friendly, sensitive, and kind. You enjoy the present moment, what's going on around you. You like to have your own space and to work within your own time frame. You are loyal and committed to your values and to people who are important to you. You dislike disagreements and conflicts, and you do not force your opinions or values on others.

Busy Holiday

2009-09-01T18:06:00.001+08:00

Busy Holiday?

06 Sept - PC Project
11 Sept - Nebo Junior kidzQuest
12 Sept - Lion Befriender
19 Sept - Garaage Sales at Downtown East
29 Sept - Sub-comm Workshop
01-03 Oct - LTC/MTC Camps
15-16 Oct - Oct Orientation

With all this plus work, bet that this holiday will pass super fast. Haiz.

31 August 2009

2009-09-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

Monday August 31

Meeting in the morning with sheikh for ESC sub-com workshop.

Off to lunch at Eastpoint.
Was damn happy to see Barry Lim arh. OMG like one year didn't see him already. Super duper happy to see him joining us for lunch. :)

We went to Eatzi, has student meal, chicken cutlet. Wanted to pay ourself feel so bad to have barry lim to treat us when its teachers' day, suppose for us to treat him lar.

28 August 2009

2009-08-31T00:09:00.002+08:00

Friday August 28

Highlights of the day: Town with ESC main-comms, and Yessy's birthday.

Went fareast, ION, orchard central. Lots of fun, lots of photos.

Taken at ION

Taken at Orchard MRT

Taken at Orchard Central

Taken at Alps Cafe

27 August 2009

2009-08-30T00:27:00.009+08:00

Thursday August 27
It marks the end of my year 2.1 which means that half of my polylife is over. OMG, damn fast lar. Also, it marks the end of...EXAM. Woohoo, happy but please not supp, damn scared of airport admin and airline flight ops can.

Okay, due to LIFE meeting, was not able to join the class for movie :( Haiz.

But, nevermind went to singapore flyer instead to recee the place for the nebo kidzquest II with ZJ, YQ & Wendy and Mr Ken. Nothing happening to talk about.

After that went to bugis with ZJ, YQ & Wendy to party shop and see whether there's anything we can sell, for the garrage sales.
And its dinner time...Did not know what to eat and we went back to marina square to yuki yaki for BUFFET!

Really enjoyed myself, thanks ZJ, YQ & Wendy. :) Exam stress gone.
Oh add-on, got my revenge on the way home, cause YQ was not there. Woohoo.

Our 20 cups of ice-cream

Busy studying exam clears my mind of thinking of him.

26 August 2009

2009-08-26T13:41:00.002+08:00

Wednesday August 26

Last paper tomorrow, whoo, like FINALLY, after days of torturing.

Today's airport system the best paper ever yeah, though still got quite a few question can't remember, but the paper still the best lar. Gary Ho totally rox.

Cause tomorrow is last paper, books are needed to company me through the holiday. :) Bought "My sister's keeper". Wanted to buy "Love lies" too, but times doesn't seem to have it. :(

And photobucket sucks now, cause it says "your photobucket is full sign up for premium". Sucker.

25 August 2009

2009-08-25T19:08:00.000+08:00

Tuesday August 25

3 papers down, 2 more to go. Many has finish, and here we are, still suffering. Zzzz...

Airport admin paper, the worst paper I ever take. Eff lar. After the paper, only @#$%#%#@%@%@#$%#$%#$%@$%#. The wonderful me, don't know how to do section B at all. Nice right. Now what I hoping for is just a D for airport admin, having B+ for term test does not help at all. Fuck lar.

Please Be Nice To Me

2009-08-24T21:00:00.009+08:00

Please Be Nice To Me - Kim Hyun Joong

Time check: 10.55pm
After about 2 hrs of playing laptop, And now back to reality, airport admin. Haiz...
Its only 2 papers done, 3 more to go, and I already feel like dying liao.

23 August 2009

2009-08-23T21:14:00.002+08:00

Sunday August 23

Shopping at TM again, so OMG lar just within 2 days at TM and I spent more than 100 plus close to 200 lar. So OMG can. But quite happy, hmm, but a bit heart paint sia......Haha.

Ok, bought
1 top - $31
1 shoe - $19.90
1 eye shaow & eye liner & 1 facial wash - Around $34
1 cardigan - $10.90
Cream puffs - $10
1 nail polish - $2.50

Plus yesterday:
1 top & 2 tubes & 1 legging - $34
1 nail polish - $2.90
1 pant - $15.50
1 belt - $5

Total: $165.70 (whoo, no more shopping for few weeks, should keep my POSB card at home.)

Ok, back to exam, ALFOP tml and I know nth at all accept for the calculation for fuel, wanting to stay at home to study is not helping at all plus with all the shoppings, and all the distraction - TVs, laptops, painting nails...Zzzzz...

And totally no mood to study and from last year paper, it is not easy at all, I'm so Zzzzz. OMG can pass ALFOP I'm happy with it already.

22 August 2009

2009-08-22T11:46:00.002+08:00

Saturday August 22

Only 1 paper down, still got 4 more papers. And I totally have no more mood to study already. OMG lar.

Went TM for shopping, relieve stress yeah. And spent over $50 in just a few hours. Haha...
Bought 1 top, 2 tubes, 1 leggings, 1 pants, 1 belt and 1 nail polish from faceshop.:)
Charlies & Keith with sis tml, shoes I'm coming.
Shall go early and home to study tml!

Papers:
Monday: ALFOP
Tuesday: Airport Admin
Wednesday: Airport system
Thursday: MGTAIRC

20 August 2009

2009-08-20T20:58:00.004+08:00

Thursday August 20

Exam tml??? OMG lar, this week past so fast like nobody's business sia.
Guess everyday study don't have to think of what to do. Everyday, Sleep, wake up, study.

Study study study
Monday, tuesday studied in school.
Wednesday, Thursday studied in airport.
Study study so no life. Haiz.
Study study study = Boredom boredom boredom.

Should go back to study airfield soon.
Hope all the tips are right otherwise GG = Supp paper.
No supp paper please.

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

15 August 2009

2009-08-15T15:07:00.004+08:00

Saturday Ausgust 15

Exam coming week.
5 more days???
Sucks lar so much stuff to study.

2 weeks, no matter what must take my mind off him, really need more than usual effort to study for the coming main exam, really need to get the best I can, missed so many lessons, next semester really need to be a "good" girl please.

12 August 2009

2009-08-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

Wednesday August 12

Woke up with a headache again-_-, but luckily not having fever. Thanks thanks. Seriously sucks, didn't go school, but interview for JetQuay in the afternoon.

Think screwed the interview, doubt can get in, somemore so many people applied and think they only need 16? Haiz......
Popeye after interview, not scared to die arh, not feeling well still eat popeye, but really tempting.

11 August 2009

2009-08-11T23:17:00.005+08:00

Tuesday August 11

Woke up with a headache, comflict of whether to go to school a nt......Decided to get out of bed and off to school, afraid of missing out any hints for main exam.

Bear with the headache, feeling sucks, somemore with cramp, like WTH lar.

And now, here I am with a slight fever of 38.1 and throat not feeling very good.

Please be ok by tml, there's JetQuay interview, not going to miss it no matter what.

2009-08-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its easier to smile to everyone and cry alone.

Birthday Celebration Gone.

2009-08-08T12:16:00.003+08:00

OMG lar...My 18th birthday celebration is gone. 23-24: Ashrae Sub-com camp.
And even if I dun go for any of the camp stilll can't hold my chalet right? Cause most of the people will be having camp :(

Shit lar, no chalet. Can only make it up after 5 days with club/pub. :( :(

05 August 09

2009-08-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

Wednesday August 05

Left school at 9pm plus. Decide to take 15 to pasir ris interchange and than 12. Thinking time.

Ending school tml at 6. Nothing after school was planning to go pasir ris park for a walk. Hope that I will really go.

03 August 2009

2009-08-03T22:42:00.003+08:00

Monday August 03

Airport admin quiz today, haiz, can pass I happy already.

Tuesday - French Role play, Airport admin presentation
Wednesday - MGTAIRC presentation
Thursday - ALFOP presentaiton, Airfield project due

01 August 2009

2009-08-02T19:27:00.002+08:00

Suppose to enjoy myself.

But seeing him,
the feeling of heart dropping just came about and the urge of tears coming out.

Seriously, I'm not going anywhere good, I'm not going anywhere near the opening. I'm still stuck at the original spot.

I really need to get out.

Sorry for all the trouble I had cause. Really sorry.

对不起我爱你

2009-08-01T14:41:00.004+08:00

To him:

对不起我爱你 - 梁静茹

没别的只想说对不起
对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想你怎么说
也不会改变我的决定
你知道有时候感情事很难说
很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要
一想你我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳
想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

没别的只想说对不起
怎么样我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲
你怎么做
也不会影响我的心情
你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸
难捉摸爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要
一想你我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记得牢
情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你
听歌想着你
大地和蓝天
出现的全是你
我才不管你的表情
我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

你听一听我的心跳
你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

The only thing that I can say to you is sorry.

30 July 2009

2009-07-30T22:29:00.003+08:00

Feeling very moody.
Feeling very sucky inside.
Really feeling very bad.
Really cannot hold any more.

Didn't know that I'm really so weak.

Took bus 15 from school, wanted to alight at tampines MRT. But really not feeling good, need to take long bus ride, decided to take to pasir ris interchange and take bus 12. Even feel like going to pasir ris park for a walk, but already 8plus how long can I stay there.

Sign. Really sucks lar.

GPS at sentosa tomorroe, hope it will be fun.

St. James with Mic on sat to see Wilber Pan(my Ex cutie) hope it will brighten me up. At the same time think can talk to Mic. =)

27 July 2009

2009-07-27T23:16:00.010+08:00

I'm not feeling very good. I really want a break away.

Really feeling very bad inside. All the projects and presentations are just making it worst. Making me being able to break down anytime. Almost break down today. Please don't let it happen. Please. The worst thing I want now is to suddenly have tears drop in front of people.

Someone please convince me that it is not true. What I see is just nothing. I'm just thinking too much. It is just coincidence.

Thinking that I can face it, but I just can't. Really can't.

Really not feeling good. Really feeling sucky inside. How much longer can I hold?

心已碎了，但泪却还没干。

Can I disappear for a while? To a place where there is nobody?

全世界的人都知道 - 林依晨

2009-07-26T23:06:00.005+08:00

全世界的人都知道 - 林依晨

再见到你关键的第一秒
爱的倾诉开始发笑
小心熠熠写给你的纸条
幸福画上星星记号

你象一座孤傲的高
有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的桥
也只能将你围绕

全世界的人都知道
一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑
就算是做梦也会笑

全世界的人都知道
我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照

任何人不能阻止我对你的好

全世界的人都知道

What is your weakest point?

2009-07-26T21:55:00.001+08:00

Your Result: communication

dont get to say what u feel about a certain thing, express your feelings...want to say but stuck , kept in the heart..

Shit Lar

2009-07-22T20:44:00.005+08:00

Shit lar...
I can't seen to concentrate on my work. My whole mind is on him.

因为害怕，所以不敢面对。

New Skin

2009-07-21T22:20:00.008+08:00

Screw blogger lar. The layout so messy.

Changed a new skin.
A new skin=New Start?

16 July 2009

2009-07-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

Thursday July 16

In this kind of world no one is true.
In this kind of world most have 2 face. They can talk to you happily, and behind of you they can backstab you. And it hurts right?
Why just can't this kind of people disappear?

Lesson learned: Never trust anyone. Especially in this kind of world. Don't be stupid. They can be your "friends" and betrayer.

TMD... ...KNN.

2009-07-12T23:01:00.003+08:00

If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with.

Regretted

2009-07-12T01:03:00.003+08:00

I'm regretting the decision I have made, how I hope there is a stop to this. But no, there's no stop now but to continue. I'm hating this and I'm hating myself for making the decision. How I hope to escape from it. Everything all just coming together. There's just no time to react to it. I'm really regretting it, don't like the situation I'm in, can't I be sick? I don't mind being hospitalised now to escape from it, and even don't mind getting a minor H1N1 now. It just sucks lar.

Can I just find him for one last time?
I just feel like crying.
I just feelk like drinking.
I just feel like sleeping and not wake up till its over.

09 July 2009

2009-07-09T16:26:00.001+08:00

Thursday July 2009

Currently having Airfield Tut =P.

Woo...Did the best thing ever for this year. Slept at 8pm last night and woke up today at 10am plus. Shiok shiok. About 14 Hours of sleep. How I wish every week can be like this.

08 July 2009

2009-07-08T08:46:00.002+08:00

Wednesday July 08

TMD, WTH wake up early in the morning to attend 8am lesson, just to discuss project? Wth, wasted money on cab somemore. Stupid lar.

It hurts

2009-07-06T23:39:00.005+08:00

It hurt it just hurt.

Seeing you just hurts. I miss the days.

I have tried forgetting about it, but it just seen not to be going anywhere good.

Sometimes it hurts more when loving someone so much.

How I Wish

2009-07-05T01:06:00.001+08:00

How I wish it can be so easy like this.

我狠狠哭了一整个冬天
把你留在昨天做纪念
一个人反反复复去想去沉淀终于了解
爱狠狠哭完的那一天我也该忘记你的脸
我就在一念之间看见了春天

这世界仍然还是很美
我一个人静静听着音乐
偶尔想起你还是会掉眼泪
泪水全都是真正的体会

03 July 2009

2009-07-03T23:56:00.004+08:00

Friday July 03

Last night, was happy that I can msn him, though it may be nothing much, but I stil contented and happy. It has been so long sine I talked to him. :)

Reached school at 11 plus and rushed assignment through till 4 plus and submitted it. Whew, finally. Only airfield left.

Went to HSSSC AGM after that, theme was Big Geek, wore grace's spect=P

How I wish I can talk to him everyday.

02 July 2009

2009-07-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

Thursday July 02

Airfield assignment supposed to be dued, but big thanks to Tommy that I could have extension till next tuesday :).

Ok, but MGTAIRC is due tommorrow and I only have a few sentences. I just don't have the feel to do assignment. Also, because I can't stop thinking of him.

Hmm, shall wake up early tomorrow and go to school and spend the whole day doing MGTAIRC :)

Oh, and HSSSC AGM tomorrow, last 2nd AGM already. Whoo!

ESC AGM over

2009-07-01T16:11:00.005+08:00

ESC AGM is Over!

Big thanks to everyone who turn out for the AGM, hope you have fun and enjoy yourself.

Finally, the AGM is over. The first busy-ness and first event for ESC as me in the main committee for AY09/10.

Monday night stayed over in school for AGM's preparation. Slept at 4am plus, started decoration after TPSU AGM on monday night and dance at 12am plus. Dancing the dancing queen dance and engine mass dance was fun at TCC with big glass reflection.

Though somethings were left out for the AGM but over all really think that it's nice and really fun. Something nice and now I'm missing the dancing queen dance.

Pictures Time!

ESC AGM

2009-06-27T00:27:00.006+08:00

ESC AGM is next Tuesday 30 June 09! OMG! So near already!

This week is just busy and busy and busy. I just so tired, and this is only the start. Like so OMG lar.

Ok, next week airfield, apel, airport system & MGTAIRC due. Like WTH lar, so many, and I'monly half-way through with airfield, apel, and airport. AND there is AGM next week lar TMD why so busy.

AGM I so want to dance with him =X. But impossible right?
The more busy I am, the more tired I am, the more I think of him. Has he forgotten about it? And sometimes just feel like tears coming up, but I have to get through this right? Does he know that I still like him?

忍不住想要爱你的冲动

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动

关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我

你的世界如此辽阔
我会在那个角落

Sucks Lar

2009-06-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

Sucks Lah

Thurs: CSC AGM
Fri: BSC AGM
Sat: Work
Sun: Shop for AGM decoration
Mon: TPSU AGM
TUES: AGM!
Wed: Airport System due, Apel Due
Thurs: Airfield Due
Fri: MGTAIRC Due & HSSSC AGM

TMD what is this?

Termtest Result

2009-06-23T12:30:00.004+08:00

OMG!

OMG, I'm so happy for my airport admin.
OMG, I got 38 for airport admin. My first B+ ever.

Omg, I only have 31.5 for airport system.

21 June 09

2009-06-21T13:27:00.001+08:00

Sunday June 21

I'm lazy to blog, and I dunno how to start airfield. There's like nothing I can find from the internet. -_-

狠狠哭

2009-06-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

Part of 狠狠哭 by 郭采洁

我狠狠哭了一整个冬天
把你留在昨天做纪念
一个人反反复复去想去沉淀终于了解
爱狠狠哭完的那一天我也该忘记你的脸
我就在一念之间看见了春天

这世界仍然还是很美
我一个人静静听着音乐
偶尔想起你还是会掉眼泪
泪水全都是真正的体会

What I need?

2009-06-16T01:05:00.003+08:00

What I need is just a day for me to disappear to somewhere in the morning and returing home at night, a day just for myself without all the club stuff, school stuff & assignment. Can't I? Where no one knows where I'm going even myself where I will just follow where my legs lead me to.

14 June 09

2009-06-14T17:43:00.003+08:00

Sunday June 14

Managed to find replacement for work, but after more than 15 hours of sleep, I'm still feeling tired, wanting to sleep more. My gosh.

Ok, really need to start concentrating on assignment, only half-way through apel and 1/4 of ALFOP, and I stil have MGTAIRC, Airport Systems, Airfield Systems. Otherwise I can forget about all the AGMs and sleeping after term breaks.

Facebook, please breakdown or something so that I can concentrates on doing my assignment.

And tuesday will be at SYFC, wednesday will be going out(the only shopping time I have for this 2 weeks break-_-) , thurs-fri will be having camp and sat will be working. So where do I find time to do my assignment?

How I wish I can finish one assignment a day, but it impossible even if I don't sleep and have 24 hours right?

I WANT TO FINISH AIRLINE FLIGHT OPS by TOMORROW. Can I?

13 June 09

2009-06-13T19:03:00.001+08:00

Saturday June 13

Having headaches, swollen eyes and menses cramps Sucks.

12 June 09

2009-06-12T23:49:00.003+08:00

Friday June 12

Went to school at 11 for briefing for next tues.
After that ALP "low elements", haha, with the ESC main comm. Hmm, more fun than the LTC one.
Than went to awards ceremony at 4, damn boring. -_-

Saw cutey today, he look damn cute in formal lar. :x

10 June 09

2009-06-10T21:25:00.003+08:00

Tues-Wed June 09-10
Leadership camp

Nothing much but something different from usual camps like the things do where there are dragonboat and ALP.
Second time of dragonboat and first time of ALP. Damn fun:). BUT muscle aching:(

Mix with other main comm, and now see the reason of why BSC is so strong, see the unity where other comm don't have.

Highlights: Yong Qiang brought this don't now what bouncing egg game, and at night after supper played till damn high!

At least there is something Contented in this camp.

Still thinking of you

2009-06-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

It has been a few months

It has been a few months, and I tried, But I just can't forget about him. Thought being busy will help to forget about him, but it sucks, and it make it worst. make me think of him more. And stupid me to be happy even seeing him a glance. It has been 1-2 months already since I talked to him. Many times I want to talk to him, but manage to stop myself, cause I not that I have to stop this feeling asap, don't know how long it will last, but asap asap asap. I need to get on with my life since there is more responsibility now for me and really need to pull up my GPA, so my life cannot be fuck up and have to continues no matter what.

Wrote this post because been having him in my dream, its nice, but I know ITS BAD.

I need a guardian angel.

Loneliness

2009-06-07T19:26:00.000+08:00

Loneliness

You often feel left out of the clique. you seem like you do not know what to say when they are all laughing at some random things at times. you wish they will notice your quietness. you are trying very hard to hide the feeling of loneliness even when you have friends around you. there is a lonely soul living inside you.

Anymore?

2009-06-06T11:08:00.003+08:00

Anymore?

Term Break:
8 June: ESC Meeting
9 - 11 June: Camp
12 June: Workshop
14 June: Work
16 June: "Reunion lunch" with primary school friends(So looking forward to it)
18 - 19 June: Camp?

After Term Break:
22 June: Airline Flight Ops Assignemnt due
24 June: Airport System 1 Project due
25 June: Airfield System 1 Assignment due
29 June: Airport System Assignment due

04 June 2009

2009-06-04T20:12:00.003+08:00

Thursday June 04

Last paper MGTAIRC tml! like finally, and this week took the test till like numb or something that I don't have the feeling that I have taken 4 papers already.

And having laptop turn on simply sucks, cause it just tempting, especially with restaurant city!

What mask do you wear?

2009-05-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

From facebook, What mask do you wear?

Your mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can't seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you're convinced they won't understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have your select friends, but can't help but want something more. You find opening up difficult, but you do find your ways to let things out. You have your good days, but even through the good times, you feel like there is always going to be those feelings that don't sit right.

Is This What I Want?

2009-05-30T12:05:00.007+08:00

Is This What I Want?

Term Test:
1 June: Airfield
2 June: Airline Flight Ops
3 June: Airport Admin
4 June: Airprot Systems 1
5 June: MGTAIRC

Term Break:
9 - 11 June: Camp
12 June: Workshop
14 June: Sentosa Outing
18 - 19 June: Camp?

After Term Break:
22 June: Airline Flight Ops Assignemnt due
24 June: Airport System 1 Project due
25 June: Airfield System 1 Assignment due
29 June: Airport System Assignment due

Nothing is making me enjoy it so far, and this is only the start, so what can I do but to hang on to it right?
Nothing is fair in the world, and nobody is true to you most people are fake out there.

Busy

2009-05-27T14:25:00.004+08:00

Busy Busy Busy

Assignment Assignment Assignement

Term test Term test Term test

Tired Tired Tired

Note: I have got motivation for MGTAIRC cause I have 18/20 for quiz!

24 May 09

2009-05-24T15:29:00.004+08:00

Sunday May 24

Planned to finish Aiport Admin Assignement by today, but just started continuing. Doubt I can finish it by today.

And my whole report is in a mess, with reference here and there, infomation here and there, and some part of research not done yet.

Continue 22 May 09

2009-05-23T11:33:00.002+08:00

Continue Fri May 22

Helped out at the outreach at 2-5 in school nothing much to blog, was being camera woman:)

Election results out at 6 plus at student lounge, and yup I got in.
And congrats to Zhi Yong for VP and those who got into SU. Congrats.:)
Whoo, and now AMS got both P vand VP in ESC!

After tht went to airport for popeyes wif Paige, Haz and Shah.:)

22 May 09

2009-05-22T10:59:00.004+08:00

Friday May 22

I'm in school on a friday! OMG! Rawr...Thanks to project and Assignment-_-

Term test time-table are out and again, it sucks!

* And thanks everyone who voted for me. Love you guys. Muacks!

笨的可以 - 郭采洁

2009-05-18T23:33:00.003+08:00

笨的可以 - 郭采洁

听你开心说着你的事情
我有一种莫名心跳反应
夜深人静时候突然想到你
没有原因没有逻辑谁能说明
总以为我们是地球的南北两极
直到分开旅行我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听

是我笨的可以我们早就相遇
我说服我自己这一切只是友情
是你让我相信两颗心没有距离
我才发现原来我爱着你

总是爱捉弄我寻我开心
从来没有想过会喜欢你
也许爱情就是没什么道理
缘分来临措手不及谁看得清
总以为我们是地球的南北两极
直到分开旅行我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听

是我笨的可以我们早就相遇
我说服我自己这一切只是友情
是你让我相信两颗心没有距离
我才发现原来我爱着你

是我笨的可以没看穿你的心
还以为这只是爱情无聊的恶作剧
是我笨的可以我终于面对自己
勇敢证明我是真的爱你

我是真的爱你

16 May 09

2009-05-16T21:49:00.003+08:00

Thursday May 14
Stayed in school like till 12am plus just to put up the stupid poster for elections. And thanks JM for helping to do the poster and Shah for coming buy to school and buy dinner for us.

And this, regretted a bit for wanting to run ESC, but too late now to backup now right? So now? No choice but to continue what I'm doing right? And no matter whether I'm in it a not, it no longer matters to me any more, If I'm in, I'm in and will continue to be in ESC. If I'm not in, I'm not in, cause it does not matter, and seriously don't really feel confidence in getting enough votes to get into the top 15.

At least I spent only $0.15 to print the poster! So what I have wasted is only the time not $$$. =P

And I have never ever thought that I would actually be involved in this kind of political stuff.

Friday May 15
Nothing much, worked from 12.30 - 9.30 so there's no other thing I can do.

So many things but so little time(Coming week):
Mon:
- French mock test
- Community service
- Campaign period is still on
Tues - Thurs:
- Voting at cyber centre.
Thurs:
- MGTAIRC quiz
Fri:
- Results of election out
28 May (thurs):
- Airport Admin due

ESC election

2009-05-14T16:25:00.004+08:00

ESC Election

Do vote for me from 19-21 May at Cyber centre!

Also do vote for:
Tang Zhi Yong & Sheikh Zafran.

11 May 09

2009-05-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

Monday May 11

Made a big decision today, hope that its right and I will not regret it.

Everyday is Busy busy busy. Yeah, thts answers why I'm blogging so little now a days.

Routine Life

2009-05-09T00:10:00.003+08:00

Routine Life

Nothing much to blog, so didn't blog for few days liao. Everyday is just go school, go home, go sleep, if not go work. Everything is just so routine.

Friday May 08

Went school specially for 1 hour just for meeting-_-'. Stupid lar.

After tht wanted to go shopping before work, but saw Kenneth and Damien, so went lunch with them, and after that. Working time. Work is simply boring these few days. Sales sucks.

Ok, I need to start studying cause there's nothing in my mind of the past lessons. Also, there's Tommy's quiz next week. OMG. So, I need motivation, but where do I get it from?

What am I to him now?

Miss talking to him.

Sick

2009-05-04T12:51:00.002+08:00

Sequences:
24-25 April: AMS camp
26 April: Work
27-30 April: School
1-3 May: Work

Results:
Sick >_<

30 April 09

2009-04-30T21:10:00.005+08:00

Thursday April 30

Having 3 Hrs straight of lecture simply sucks. It is totally Zzzzz...Rawr!...Somemone tut straight after that. Hate this timetable sia...Totally not productive at all.

I'm simply tired now, and there is still work. Zzzz.
Tml 12pm - 10.30pm at CS
Sat 12.30pm - 9.30pm at Fareast
Sun 12pm - 10pm at CS

Moody.

27 April 09

2009-04-28T00:23:00.006+08:00

Monday April 27

Having work the next day right after camp sucks, and is sucks even more when you have not recover the loss of sleeping time during camp and your lessons start again-_-. Though lesson start at 10 but I'm still like having trouble waking up for it. Zzzz.

And having 3hrs straight of lecturers make it worst. RawR!

Anyway, I'm so llove this camera lar, DMC-LX3. It was Gary's camera where JinMing Borrow for AMS orientation. The photo taken the background is like so damn nice arh. It is like 10.1 mega pixels, High-Sensitivity 1/1.63-inch CCD 10.1 Megapixels and Venus Engine IV up to ISO3200 at Full Resolution, 24mm Wide Angle f/2.0 LEICA DC VARIO-SUMMICRON Lens with 2.5x Optical Zoom, Full Manual Operation, HD Motion Images and HD Output, 3.0-inch (460,000-dot) 3:2 Ratio Intelligent LCD, Intelligent Auto Mode with AF Tracking. So OMG lar.

24-26 April

2009-04-26T23:25:00.004+08:00

Fri - Sat April 24-25
AMS Orientation Camp

Publicity Rocks!
Hmm...Combine pictures of publicity got thousand plus...Woo...
Though fri night slept at like 5am but publicity woke up at 10am! Haha...Though is shiok, but stil tired, like stoned the whole sat when nothing to do!

I'm lazy to update about the whole camp so, that's all...Haha

Sun April 26
Work after the next day of camp totally sucks, and after one cup of coffee down it still doesn't work. Zzzzz... Luckily was smart not to put eyeliner, other wise all the customers will see ghost sia.

One more week to pay sia...RAWR..So loong...

Next week work:
Fri: 12 - 10.30(Public holiday 1.5 pay Woohoo)
Sat: 12.30 - 9.30
Sun: 12 - 10

Tml: school again-_-

Though is busy and tiring, but at least it stop me from thinking of him and other stuff.

22 April 09

2009-04-22T23:27:00.003+08:00

Wednesday April 22

Reached home and took out the CDC bursary and asked mum want to apply a not. And heard from mum something which I dreaded hearing that my dad will only be working till end of this month cause the company is closing down, but dunno confirm a nt, and my mood was totally gone even it is not confirm.

Suddenly my heart totally sink right down to the deep deep sea. Was loss at first and thought about it while shitting.

I really have to be strong and next month pay I really have to save and not anyhow spend money, cause now every dollar counts. So...no more luxury life next month...and concession I will pay myself! I need to try not to take money from my mother. So everything depends on my pay, and my pay is not that much sia.

And I really need to commit to my work till everything is over.

I really have the urge to message him, cry and say everything out, cause everything he say is just so right, really can talk me out of things that are bothering me. But I know I can't cause I know that he is busy with his stuff right?

Pissed off

2009-04-20T22:33:00.006+08:00

Pissed Off!

Do people have no respect for other people when they are older?
Why can't just this "******" just accept the fact that your game are just not practical in TP? You are just making a fool out of yourself making people to laugh at you, so old already still cannot think, so stubborn somemore.

Think you older than us than no need respect people arh, even the seniors? Want to have power because you are older? TMD, want come poly than accept the truth arh, we are equal regardless of citizen, race & age ok. Everything is state as Freshmen, junior, senior. So act accordingly to your years arh, don't think that because you are old, people have to respect you but you don't have to respect people. Hello, I don't take this ok, respect me and I will respect you, as easy as ABC.

You are just showing that you can't work with people, there are so many people in the team there, yet everything you just plan on your own. Then like that program need so many people for what, you do one man show can already ma.

Wa, think that you big arh. Sorry wo bu chi zhe tao, ok. Want power go back to your Uni arh, don't come poly and la la OK! Want power, run main com arh, run ESC arh, run TPSU arh, think you can't get in on your own.

14-17 April 09

2009-04-19T14:15:00.006+08:00

Tues-Fri April 14-17
Week 0 Orientation

Refresher Day: Started off with engine mass dance and xi shua shua dance, don't understand why they want to dance engine mass dance cause it will not be taught to the freshies. After dinner, Flag making, Ams gt a hot pink sia.

Day 1: First time meeting freshies, first time being mentor was a bit scared can't do a good job, but in the end, tried my best and did my best. Having no voice but having to talk to the class and leading cheers sucks.

Day 2: Nothing much was bored with all the talks and speechs.

Day 3: Didn't really enjoy regatta much, AMS was at the back so can't really hear and see anything, but got high on the TPSU cheers and the TP school songs. After that was debrief, was told that dunner buffet first than debrief at 9, so AMS mentors we went Jam & Hop first and wanted to go for debrief at around 9.30, but was told that debrief was cancelled. Like WTH lar make us go back than in the end cancelled-_- My first Jam & Hop, not really fun, cause it was all techno.

Overall: Didn't really enjoy week0 much, if not of the frehies, think I would have regretted going for week0, for making myself to miss my bed for 3 nights, for having myself pissed off
bsometimes, like fellow mentors not helping, blah blah blah. Was super irritated with engine cheers and pissed off at admin, and the LL.

Conclusion: AMS FRESHIES & MENTORS ROCKS
And Thanks Shah!
Bye Grads.

Again, the feeling of wanting to see you sucks.
Been thinking, so who am I to you?

11 April 09

2009-04-12T00:32:00.002+08:00

Saturday April 11

Woke up and went to find Rinku at 12 at harbourfront to go sentosa for FO final clash. So happy seeing all the freshie :D And having fun with them in the sea after final clash ended. Nothing much to say bout final clash cause it sucks thanks to some "******" empire, play like there is no rule like that.=_=

And spoiler have to leave at 3.30 for work.-_-

Sunday April 12

Home gonna have to wake up at 11 plus to go COLOUR MY HAIR! After that to meet Mic to go shop at tampines 1! Wee...

9 April 09

2009-04-10T13:24:00.003+08:00

Thursday April 09

Went shopping at bugis wif Amanda and spent like 50 plus of 1 tube, 1 shorts, 1 top, and 1 mango tank top.

After that we meet Johnson at Marina Square to have BUFFET at Yuki Yaki! Highlights of the buffet was the making of the Ice-cream part, first time make ice-cream, the feeling was just so fun!

FOW/FOC

2009-04-10T13:08:00.003+08:00

FOW / FOC 2-4 / 6-8 April

First time being a GL and first time joining FO, a memorable experience. Being a GL feels good, taking care of the freshies, making sure that they feels good, and getting to know that they want to join as GL because inspired by us, the feeling is just undescriable.

FOC last day, when knowing that Rinku gt last, me and most of the other GLs cried, heard that even other empires and our FA cried too. Just can't control myself, and was super irritated where we have to do the "Kai Xin" cheer was super irritated by the people who keep asking "Rinku ni men kai xin ma" where have no choice but to do it cause the freshies are still there, and the more of this cheer the more I cried.

Though Rinku got last, but we will last forever. Sorry freshie for crying in front of you all and thank full that at least we got 3rd for 1st day and 2nd day of FOC. And please do not feel guility, as you all have done your best esp during hunt-gry.

Am really lazy to type out all the details of the camp, so yup, this is what I have.

Freshies : LOVE YOU PEEPS!

Off to FOW

2009-04-01T18:53:00.003+08:00

FOW Tml!

Tml have to report at 8am! Dunno can wake up a not sia. Hmm, and I haven pack sia.

Schedule following:
2-4 Thurs-Sat : FOW
5 Sun : Work
6-8 Mon-Wed : FOC
9 Thurs : Out for Buffet
10 Fri : Work
11 Sat : Work
14-17 Tues-Fri : Week 0
18 Sat : AMS week1 Dryrun

Pay

2009-03-30T23:51:00.005+08:00

Pay is coming, but its so little. Somemore deduct CPF-_-.
There's so many things I want to buy and do lar.

$100 - Shopping for bag, shoe, make-up romover, tops, bottoms
$50 - K + Buffet
$60 - Colour Hair

But come to think of it, camps and works are packing my weeks, so do I really have time for these?

But being busy just suits me now, not having much time to think of him and all those stupid stuff.